Tough decisions

How do I know when it is the Holy Spirit leading me and when it is just my selfish old self? The problem with being a leader is that sometimes tough decisions have to be made? Decisions like, should we hire this pastor? Will he be the man to take us and lead us? Will he be bold enough to rebuke us when he feels it is necessary? We don't even know this man and we are going to rely on him to take us somewhere?

My brain is about to bust it seems with the pressure that I feel to make the right decisions. What if I make the wrong decisions? I don't want it to be the same as it has been. I don't want to get someone here who is afraid to lead into the dark waters and challenge us. I have had enough of that. Has anyone felt this before? Is this normal? If it is normal, why would anyone put themselves through this?

And then a voice of wisdom from someone important in my life. 2 Chronicles 20:1-30 tells us about the story of Jehoshaphat and how they looked to God in their time of need against a vast army of people. Verse 6 says "O LORD, God of our fathers, are you not God in heaven?" ESV The God that has set the world on end is in charge and has a plan in place to take care of us. It makes me ask the question, what does that look like in my situation? If I believe that God is God, I mean if I truly believe that God is God, then that knowledge should make a difference in my life today.

In verse 12 Jehoshaphat says "O our God, will you not execute judgment on them? For we are powerless against this great horde that is coming against us. We do not know what to do, but our eyes are on you."ESV

Thank you Lord that you are God and I don't have to be. My eyes are on you, please help me to believe it!